Unsaid

Today I caused great pain to someone from my past whom I care for deeply.

I just hope he knows how much it hurt me to do it. And I hope that when the hurt subsides, he will forgive me because I'm not sure that I'll be able to find forgivness within myself.

I'm sorry.

Falling

Today I stood on a ledge...and jumped.

I threw myself into nothingness. Lept with reckless abandon.

I let the wind drown out all the voices, all the people, all the opinions that have been stalking me. Plaguing me.

For one brief, magnificent window of time...I let go.

I was free.

Today...I went skydiving.

And for the first time in a long time...I lived.

The Spinster's Birthday

Tomorrow is my birthday.

Wonder if it's possible to just skip it this year?

Can I just say, "Excuse me, but I don't feel like turning 31 this year...so I think I'm just going to have to pass."

Wonder if that'll fly...