Thursday, July 15, 2010


I have found that this year has held both the best experiences of my life and the worst.

I began the year in the best possible way…by bidding adieu to my life as a spinster.

On one breezy, spring afternoon, I laced myself into a pretty white dress…and went for a stroll.

There are some people that will tell you that getting married doesn’t feel any different, especially if you’ve already been together for a long time. But I find that I disagree. There was something about that leisurely stroll…when the world seemed to stop and Jess took my hand and asked me to be his wife, now and forevermore. In that moment, I felt the gentle shift as ‘I’ became ‘We’ and realized with certainty and great comfort that I would never again face life’s struggles alone. There is something very empowering about that knowledge…though little did I know that I would be calling upon it so soon.

When I lost my father, I found myself standing before a dark abyss of grief…teetering on the edge, staring into the vast blackness that was filled with my heartache, my rage. There were moments when I felt like the ground beneath me was going to crumble and send me toppling in…other times I flirted with the thought of jumping in and letting the darkness consume me. Even now, with the pain still fresh and having to face my 33rd birthday in two days time without my father…I find that I am a woman come undone. The only reason I am able to continue to tell my story is because Jess trails behind me, catching the bits of me that fall away…holding them safely until sleep takes me and he can put me back together again.

He’s a good man, that husband of mine. He is also someone you know.

Nearly five years ago…I started this little blog. Can anyone remember why?

Yes, that’s right. Because of a broken heart.

It is with a bemused smile that I tell you, that the man who broke my heart and spawned this blog…is the same one who has been patiently putting me back together the last few weeks.

It is amazing what a few years apart and a lot of growing up will do for you. :o)

Alas, I never thought the day would come but my time as a spinster is officially over and therefore, it is with a heavy heart that I realize it is time to bring this blog to an end.

…Fear not! While I may have conquered the Spinster World, there’s a whole new world of adventures awaiting me as a newlywed. Please join me as I take on…The Rookie Wife Diaries


Blogger yrautca said...

Congrats! Happy that you found your guy in the end. Best wishes.

7/15/2010 10:58 PM  
Blogger Professor Fate said...

Good bye Spinster.

7/16/2010 10:55 AM  
Blogger berly02 said...

See you there!

7/17/2010 8:57 AM  
Blogger Miss Ash said...

Congrats on the wedding and sorry to hear about your dad :(

I got a little teary when I read about Jess picking up the pieces of you and putting you back together...

7/22/2010 8:48 PM  
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7/25/2010 8:30 PM  
Blogger Keshi said...

sweet :) Congrattz! I still rem all ur great posts. u always wrote the best posts.

I love this one alot Linny..truly straight from the heart. I could relate to the bits where u wrote abt ur dad's death and the deep dark hole it took u to. *HUGZ* now u hv a new man in ur life..enjoy ur married life and all the best too!

And yes Im still writing! Someone pls save me from this writing mania lol! however, it took me 6 months to write that latest post - that was the longest break between 2 posts of mine, considering how manic I was abt writing b4!

I dun think I will blog like that ever again...maybe once in 6 months or so..or not at all. Although there's some attachment to this place that seems to keep bringing me back, I hv lost that desire to be here the way I used to.

Anyways TC Linny, all the very best and we'll catch up again whenever ok 'rookie wife' ;-) XO


7/25/2010 8:31 PM  
Blogger Marybeth said...

I happened back here today on a lark and discovered your farewell and the reasons why. Many congratulations my friend - I found a similar path after years of feeling the same about life. In less than a year, I went from loss of job, loss of pet, loss of all finances, loss of pride, loss of home, loss of car, loss of love... a new job, fresh financial start, car, love of my life, marriage, and the child I'd been told for 20 years I'd never conceive :)

Marybeth (Weight is Over, Attraversiamo)

9/08/2010 3:48 PM  
Blogger Jill said...

This post touched me in a way I can't explain. I'm glad you guys ended up having a happily ever after!

11/08/2010 12:09 PM  

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