Dark Day

You know, I've spent a lot of my life believing in tales of Karma and living by the rule that in being a good person and doing kind things...good fortune would befall me.

These days I'm beginning to wonder if that was nothing more than just a children's tale.

It seems that just when I found my days filled with sunshine and happiness...a hooded figure drew near and stole the sunshine right out of the sky.

Leaving me to stand alone in the dark.

Leaving me unable to find my way.

Standing Still

A relationship is never easy.

Especially when it is one you are trying to nuture over countless miles while the one you love battles the demons of war and all that comes with it. Unfortunately with war...there are always casualties.

But the question is, do you fall to the ground and let the darkness take you? Or do you force yoursef to your feet, reaching...grasping...fighting to pull yourself to safety?

I've been wounded before.

I'm not afraid of pain.

What I am afraid of is giving up.

With relationships I've done the rollercoaster thing and the carousel thing and like my dear Carrie Bradshaw once said, "I just want someone to stand still with for a minute."

I know who I want to stand still with...it's just a matter of getting him across the mine fields.

Once a Spinster...

Someone must have left a window open because all my good luck has up and walked right out of it.