Haunted
Some people are haunted by ghosts.
I am haunted by words. Words from my past. Words from my present.
Words that won't go away.
"I think it's about that time. I may regret this tomorrow...but right now, I'm just not happy." "I'm not sure who your father is." "I love you more than you'll ever know. I just wish I had told you sooner." "At this age, it's important that you learn self control."
I don't know what it is about the last couple of days but there they are...running through my head on repeat. Different voices, different memories...stealing any moments of silence that I have.
Here's to hoping they'll get bored and wander away...
posted by Lindsey @ 2/28/2006 06:39:00 AM
25 Comments:
Maybe these thoughts/memories are running through your mind for a reason. Showing up at just the right moment for you to learn something new??
To see something you didn't know was there before?
To help with a decision?
I always listen to the voices in my head... Right now they're telling me to clean my rifle and stockpile ammo...
;)
Words can sting Linny, I know. The best advice I can give you, is don't dwell. You get wrapped in the past, and you get sucked into a black hole somewhere...no one knows where it goes.
i'm right there with you. I can't forget one thing the DJ said to me over the weekend. It's absolute torment. What?
Go get bored words.
Everybody hears voices. The only problem is when you think that they aren't yours and try to talk back. Insecurities suck until we make them a part of us and use them as strengths. I know how I did it, but everybody is different and needs to work crap out their own way.
Isn't it weird that certain statements remain with you for the rest of your life? I think we need to start remembering the nice things that are said to us. However, I don't think that is the case. I rarely remember the complememnts, I do however flinch when I remember the unkind ones. And they always seem to pop up at the most inconvenient times.
You'll figure out if you need to do anything about it or not, x
How 'bout "I should have married you when I had the chance."
That's always good to hear years and years after the relationship has ended!
I hope they get bored too. Interesting how these things surface isn't it?
Wordy rappinghood? I am sorry things are in your head.
Those are heavy messages that those voices bring...
verbal bullets...they r the most dangerous and painful...
Keshi.
I have that sometimes and it drives me crazy! Capture your thoughts- each time a not so great memory comes, grab it, and toss it.
I like to think that when things like that happen to me, i'm coming up on some serious revelation, or change. And usually, It is some change that takes place.
Maybe your body is purging those thoughts because you're changing emotionally. Whatever it is, i'm sorry they're weighing heavily on your mind. Those ones are tough...
(Sigh)
Linny me girl, I think we need a vacation. Some fabulous weekend cruise. We could pimp about the deck like two Manhattanites, and the only voices we could hear would be the hot pool boys whispering in our ears.
Or...we could get really drunk and that might take care of it too. ;)
Happy Wednesday,
~ Ash
Put a voice to them and then they will no longer be haunting. Get them out so that you can begin to come to terms with them.
Things can only haunt you if you are hiding them, let them out!
Good advice, Sarah. I think you may be on to something. It does seem like the things we are hurt by stay hidden within because we are either embarrased or because they are too painful to deal with. When things are left undealt with, they always somehow resurface as a screaming reminder of our failures, letdowns, or doubt of our self-worth in the eyes of another.
I have those kinds of words haunting me too. I just tend to ignore them or think happy thoughts like killing some people at work :)
I agree with Cari. The past is left back there because it can't be changed or rectified. Just wish I could take some of that advice.
Tis the time for reflection for everyone I think.
Linny, you caould do with a vacation, get away from it and take a breather. Perhaps it'll clear your head.
we're listening.
I know how you feel! x
I hear those words in the wee hours of the morning when all is quiet and I'm wide awake. I refuse to listen to them very long, and instead get a book, or flip on the computer.. (nothing but trash tv on at that hour)... thank goodness they don't stick around long.
maybe they are just keeping you in check?
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