The Final Goodbye
Have you ever looked back at a past relationship gone awry and honestly had trouble remembering what it was that brought the two of you together in the first place? Wondered what it was about that person that intoxicated you and lured you in?
You wonder...because those feelings have long since been suffocated in their sleep and replaced with loathing, resentment and an overall dislike.
As I sat in my car unconsciously gripping the steering wheel with an unnecessary amount of force...I watched him drive by. For just a moment, time seemed to freeze because for the first time since our relationship's demise, my eyes fell on the face of the one who had battered my heart so terribly that there was question as to whether it would ever beat again.
I watched him go past...watched the distance between us grow larger...I watched until I couldn't see him anymore. And at that moment...instead of voicing the resentment I had stored in my heart...I silently thanked him.
I thanked him because if he hadn't let me go, I would have never met the man who has made me come to understand what it truly means to be loved.
posted by Lindsey @ 3/24/2007 08:09:00 PM
21 Comments:
Yay for closure and progress!
You know, I have nothing to say these days, as relationships are beyond the realm for me.
I'm simply happy you are so happy with the new beau.
Every relationship, good or bad, teaches us something; so happy for you hon!
Agree with Kathryn, sometimes if not always, there's rhyme and reason to the events in our lives. This time it's clear. So happy for you too! :-)
I'll ditto Kathryn and Autumn Storm.
This is the besy way I have ever seen my philosophy phrased.
The past is a historical fact. You cannot change it. Be thankful for what it taught you or helped you become.
Ditto. When looking back can make us thankful that we didn't sink deeper into a sxxthole.
Thankfully i have never ever run into an ex which is kind of bizzare but in a good way :)
Oh wait there was one.....but it was a good running into.
nice blog you got.
and i kinda relate to this post.only my battared heart is still raw with pain and im still trying to understand why people do the things they do to hurt others.
I had one like that, I still don't like him, I really just pitty him now. I think that I would still do the same thing that you did if I saw him again but I have the same thoughts about him as you have expressed. I no longer want to run him down in my vehical. Closure is good but I still every once in a while, get a smile on my face, knowing that I have a way better life than he does. In my perspective at least.
Yay for moving on! =)))
Gawd, I love a good cry. Tears for having been there myself and for you ending up in the same place I did at the end of the day. Not everybody can do that... some people wallow in it for way too long. Good for you!
That happened to me once. My response was to go straight to a shop, buy bleach, and dyed my hair completely blonde. Wierd reaction, huh?
totally understand and been there..
haven't found the right girl yet.. but thank god the wrong ones aren't in my life.
miss ur bloggin.. u've been scant lately.
I know this is going to seem pretty random but I stumble upon your blog while searching for a collage print of The Starry Night. My so-far fruitless search landed me on a blog where you had posted something about a print of The Starry Night that was made up of thousands of little pictures of space and other related objects. Believe it or not I have been looking everywhere for the same print and your post has been my only lead. I was hoping you could direct me to where you bought it or anything else about it.
Isn't it wonderful? That place where you are - you know, the place where you are enveloped in the folds of love... basking in that sweet feeling of loving, and being loved by your soulmate. So glad you found each other Lindsey.
Hello fellow spinster. I'd love to post your blog site on my blog: www.themerryspinster.blogspot.com and would be thrilled if you wanted to post my site on your blog as well.
Thanks
closure needs to come from the heart...looks like it has for u. HUGGGGGGGGZ Linny!
Keshi.
Are you still a BL or what???Haven't seen you around in a while.
Hooray for learning what you DO want.
I'm so glad I finally feel this same way. I'm totally free of that old relationship and have been for some time. I never thought it would happen.
Im soooo happy for you! All the best always! ~M
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