A Cure
One of the things about
having a birthday is that you find out who really cares for you and who really couldn't care less.Unfortunately the realization of it can prove to be enough to wriggle a hole in your heart.
Forgive and forget. Forgive and forget.
That's been my mantra for as long as I can remember. The problem is, you never really forget...try as you might. But you do become quite adept at rationalizing and making excuses.
It's a skill of the trade.
All week I waited for the "Birthday" call that never came.
I wanted to have faith that he wasn't as big a jerk as I have grown to believe. I wanted to believe that at some point in time I actually meant enough to him that he would think of me on my birthday, as I thought of him on his.
I guess what I really want is to be able to forget him as easily as he has forgotten me.
posted by Lindsey @ 7/20/2006 07:23:00 PM
24 Comments:
*big hug*
the drawing is beautiful.. did you do that?
i understand how you feel. i've been there too. u've read my blog - haha.
if someone doesn't care about you... why should you care about them.. call is selfish, spiteful, hateful.. whatever. at the end of the day linz, you're responsible for you're happiness. you own it.
and you're doing just fine without him.
coz you got all us bloggers :)
ISN'T THAT RITE???
Awwwwww, baby duck. As you have discovered it doesn't get better as you get older.
When you find somebody who'll treat you better than you treat yourself, he'll remember.
eHUG
Hey you, just remember, I think "You fine too, girl." Come share a big bowl of Blue Bell ice cream with me. I can think of ways to make you forget and ways to make you remember. :-D
See...most people will comment that you shouldnt worry and that you deserve better. So I wont say that, although we both know its true.
You know, someone who was in my life for 8 years, and who i had quite the affiar with, but who also treated me like shit....his birthday just passed like 3 weeks ago, and it took every ounce of my being to ignore it...but I was so focused on ignoring it, that I did actually not even realize until the end of the day that it had come and gone. I was pretty proud of myself.
Henry Wadsworth Longfellow once wrote :
The holiest of all holidays are those kept by ourselves in silence and apart. The secret anniversaries of the heart.
Yah girl! I feel your pain. They need to give us pills for that shit. I mean they have a pill for freakin everything...why not one that makes you forget about big jerks?
What a great mantra!
I don't know. Even when you are rolling around in the sack with them, they still forget. Think it is in the A-hole gene.
awwww!!!
hey girl...he may just not have been worth is darling...!
i would've called...but i don't have your number yet...(i'm assuming you'll give it to me before you head over here so i can arrange some time to show you around the castle and grab a pint)
I got the bday call this year...and it ruined my day. Still, if he hadn't called, I would have been upset about that as well. Six of one, half-dozen of the other.
I'm sorry he didn't call, but I don't think it's a reflection of his feelings for you. Don't take it as such.
It's never easy sweetie.
"Forgive" is the most IMPORTANT part though. And it seems that you have.
"Forget" is the hardest.
girl, dont sweat it, men are lucky to remember their own freakin bday. the only reason they do is bc they are selfish or someone else reminded them before hand....
I'm sure you'll doing fine. If this guy is the one, he will come tou you. When? tomorrow, next month, next year, or next 10 year. Who knows. As u waiting, you can have lots of fun with the ones who have gave you a "birthday call".
Maybe he thought it would only confuse you if he did call? As women are known for overanalyzing, maybe he thought he was doing you a favour by giving you space?
That being said, I think that the absence of a birthday EMAIL or txt msg or IM would have been sufficient and appropriate..?
Shit! I'm so sorry. I swear I'll remember next year.
That IS such a hard thing to do.
Awww. Thanks guys. I'm all better now. I was just a little sad yesterday.
CC: your last point was right on.
Fu: I didn't draw the picture. It's by one of my favorite local Fantasy artists named Lindsay Archer. Her work can be found at:
www.printsandthepauper.com
Miss Ash: LOVE THE QUOTE! It makes me feel better thank you.
Px: Of course I'll make sure you have my cell phone number.
To everyone else: Thanks so much for the support and actually reading through this mess and coming back for more.
Im an art fan and I really liked the sight that the image came from. Beautiful work!
Ok I tried the art sight and apparently it is down for a minute...but that's the right address.
They have a lot of artists there. She's just my favorite. I've got a few of my fairy pieces signed by her. I do love my fairies!
Hi Linny,
Belated Happy Birthday! I'm sorry! I had every intention of sending a Happy Birthday e-mail and then those stinking Golden Boys got me drunk and killed the brain cells that were supposed to remember.
love, if you find a cure for that particular ailment, let me know. k??
I can't even stand that right now.
But, you know what? You have learned all that you need to know about that person.
You, my dear, deserve not only the birthday call, but flowers, a gift, and a hug. Yes, just a call would be nice, too. We're single right now because we won't settle for anything less.
I am late but Happy Birthday.
They hurt for a reason ans I am hoping for you and I both that they hurt less as we get older that we come to find it a blessing we have a way to figure out who does and does not care for us. Especially the "hims."
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